LOA

I've been writing quite a bit lately whether it has been potential articles, short stories or poetry. I've always been a writer at heart even with other endeavors i have been part of. Despite all of that, I have felt that I hav been in a rut. A deep hole that has no end. A recent wrestling show I went to has helped with a few things. A few friends helped even more. This Edgar Allen Poe rut i've been in won't last forever, However, i am going to work through it as best as I can. There's lots of factors contributing to this part of my life including unwanted pressure from a few people that have no business trying to run my life. This state of mind i'm in right now is someplace I don't want to be. I'm going to work on them individually and thoroughly. It is going to take a while to get through. I know I will eventually print and catalog my work to show others. A portfolio is always good to have. I don't know how long I will be away from the internet. I do know it'll be a while tp get things straightened out. I have alot i'm working on and new things constantly coming into my brain. Things won't be easy for me for the next little time. I will prevail better than ever. Until next time......

Recycling

Recycling is coming to the forefront even though it is a slow rise to better awareness Waste Management has been a problem for many years. Not only are there too many dumps; but, there are many things that can be recycled to where there can be a bigger prevention of waste from going to waste dumps. Sorting out what is in the dumps and recycling what can be is one of many things that can be done in the near and far future. There are things that could be done with what cannot be recycled. In recent years, there has been less waste in dumps because of people starting to recycle. The result is a reduction in them. The significant reductions has already made an impact. People are often surprised at what is recycled and how. Laptops, cellphones along with other everyday things are being recycled. By doing so, helping others is possible. Getting money for bottles is another thing many often forget. Soda bottles and cans are often the types of bottles that are recycleable. Going to the designated places and doing so adds up in a multitude of ways over time. It is saving bottles from going into dumps as well as essentially getting paid to take them to a waste management facility. It is usually $0.05; however, it adds up over time in different ways aside from a monetary way. Another result of recycling is the material being made into other things. It helps the environment long term along with being made into surprising things such as backpacks, smaller bottles or cans and other everyday items that might be recycled. Shoes, socks, and little things that people do not think of could be made of recycled material. The environmental effects and affects are already being seen. Bigger cities have more waste and pollution with smog from the air and cigarette smoke that is polluting the air. That combination ultimately damages the planet and its air. People with asthma or breathing problems living in cities feel those effects making it hard for them to breath. The thick air is bad for them. the overall health problems regardless of being asthmatic can be lifelong in addition to life threatening. It affects everyone in the long term. It happens everywhere around the world with many not doing anything about it. However, there are just as many people that are trying to do something about it. It also affects future generations and how they will be affected. By recycling, they will feel the affects of that as well. There are ways to learn about what can be done. Doing the research on top of asking questions gets the answers needed instead of wondering or even assuming. It brings awareness to recycling as well as what it is about, what it entails along with other questions that might pop up. Many people do not know where to look or where to start. Most turn to the internet and finding websites that can help. Finding credible ones can sometimes be difficult. Websits that have .gov, .edu, and .org are often the most credible for obvious reasons of being government, educational or organizational websites. Knowing who to ask can be difficult as well. However, there are many experts in the field that are often able to help. If they are unsure they often know where to look or who to ask. The more knowledge a person has the more power they have. They know more than they did before. They also learned new things that is helpful in the long run. In comparison, they have a better understanding of recycling and can spread the word to others. The chain reaction of spreading the information helps everyone in the future for having information sperad through people. Recycling can be very helpful for everyone in many different ways. People are able to help the environment in a good way as well as make something out of recycled material. The future is very bright as far as bringing awareness to recycling.

The Rocky Road I've traveled

I was 12 years old and in middle school when I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. It not only happened out of the blue; but, it changed my life forever in many ways. It changed how I viewed life, how I lead my life along with my perspective on life. Me, my parents, sister and family had no idea why it happened. The result was a search beginning on figuring things out as far as what the cause was in addition to what medication could prevent more seizures. The difficult part was not knowing where to look much less where to begin. In fact, we were unsure on how to proceed with anything because of not knowing about seizures or Epilepsy. With that came Neurologist appointments as well as looking at the facts of what we had at the time. I had headaches for a while. To further add, they had become increasingly bad. We knew it may partially be due to hereditary on my mothers side. As it turns out, that part was right on point. We found that complex migraines were the cause of the seizures. The flipside of that was what were the cause of the complex migraines. Every solution had a different path to go down afterward. The cause of my complex migraines could be from stress of some kind, bright lights or even possibly traumatic events. My mothers death was quite a bit of stress. More than any kid my age (13 at the time of her death) experienced. The knowledge I gained from doing research has better helped me in teaching others. I did not know anything myself about seizures or Epilepy. It resulted in not knowing how to answer questions that were asked. Doing the research then spreading the knowledge I learned helped others understand me in addition to Epilepsy better. My mother died on September 1, 2002 after having a heart attack and brain stem stroke on the night of August 25, 2002. She was taken off life support against Doctors orders. She was then given six hours to live. She lived for six days. She diefied the doctors by breathing on her own for that long. Not only was there no brain activity; but, she was declared brain dead after an EEG showed there was no brain activity. The fact that she had no life support of any kind aside from IV fluid and food was remarkable among other things. According to even doctors, it was a miracle she lived for six days. To me, it was just my mom wanting everyone to say goodbye before she died. She wanted people to say their goodbye. The result was hundreds passing through everyday to say their tearful farwell. There were just as many that called to check in to see if there was progress either way. It was the funeral on September 5 that made just as much of an impact as the week in the hospital as well as her death. Even though First Baptist Church Inverness was a small church in the middle of town at the time, it was packed full of people. There were also people standing outside. For her. To say goodbye to a teacher, friend and mother. People mourned that week and still to this day. It has been the healingt that sometimes takes the longest. Her death changed me as a person. It changed how I view life, death as well as how I learn from it and able to help others. For me, it took years for the healing. It began very slowly. The process to understand what had happened and that my mom was never coming home. In spite of that, I had many friends that have helped along the way. They provided different perspectives of it and helped more that they know or will ever realize. Most of my friends and family helped in different ways whether it was a shoulder to cry on or a person to talk to. Most if not all did not fully understand because of it being such a unique situation. I had recently been diagnosed with Epilepsy then lost my mom a few months later. Not many people knew of something like that ever happening to a 13 year old girl. Regardless, they helped as much as they could. Being involved in sports was also a big help. I played softball, soccer, track and went to wrestling shows. Mom was a softball catcher while dad was a baseball pitcher. I had a lot of friends from different sports including moms basketball team she coached for six seasons. I have begun to look to the future and learned from everything that happened. Even though my future looks unsure at times, it is still as bright as anyone elses. Looking forward is my goal right now. Seeing the positives in everything is something that I have learned to do. I can learn from everything even though it is hard at times. The difference is that it is worth it in the long run. The road I have traveled over the last 11 years has not been an easy one. It has been filled with ups, downs, twists, turns and unexpected speed bumps. I have overcome obstacles I did not think I could overcome. I have overcome a lot and continue to do so.